Wow, can you believe it? The holidays are near, the ending of another year.
Year 2009 is coming to an end so quickly...TIME just never stops. Before you know it, I may already be in college pursuing what I love, moving closer to experiencing the working life on my own. I'm growing up so fast. Too fast.
I wish I could stay young forever and didn't have to experience ageing wrinkles. It's terrifying waking up one day to find yourself with white hair and long-sightedness glasses. I guess what scares me the most is Marriage. Not knowing who your life partner is gonna be, how your children will look like, whether or not you are able to be a good mum or dad...
Every step you take, there are risks. Sometimes it's just really hard to please the people around you, no matter what you do. Your best never seems good enough for them.
Meeting different people with different personalities and characters can be a burden.
It's difficult when you don't know what you should not or should say to them without hurting their feelings.
This is LIFE I guess, never easy. Things happen when you don't want them to. Like for example, your computer crashes when you're free from exams and revisions, but is alive during the exam season. Weird huh? If everything could run perfectly on perfect timing...that would be like living in Heaven wouldn't it?
Sometimes people do take things and exah other for granted, caring less about the consequences. Doing good does not mean you get good things and treatment in return. It's actually the opposite. It takes lots of patience, love, kindness to change someone or something.
There are at times I think people are being really unreasonable with ther decisions and actions, and are just playing dumb. They play with people's minds, throwing things at you to bring you down or improve you(as some people assume) and really hurt your feelings. What makes me mad the most is after all of that, they tell you it's for your own good. Right.
Why do humans do those things? Did God give us a mind to do that? So many good hearts are broken because of someone who made a little crack in them. Well, guess what? If you think feelings and hearts can be played with, think again. Each and everyone are fragile, precious and rare. Once broken, it may never be mended again.
We have got to be careful with what we do and say to others.
It may be easy to say that, "It's okay. The past is the past, let it go." to someone in pain, but do you know how hard it is to actually go through it? And calling people hypocrites when you are being ONE yourself...
As Christians, living a life God wants is indeed difficult. Evil will never stop haunting us, as long as we're still under God's arms and protection. There are times that we really have to make sacrifices to pursue God's best for us and be certain that the "little voice" is really God's, not Satan's. We need to balance our lives well and make sure God and the people we love around us are happy. It is like living a life as a POINT OF EQUILIBRIUM. ^^
Basically, I have no idea what this post is all about, just pure expressions of my frustrations going on in my mind recently. Just to be clear, I'm not finger pointing at anyone yea. Please don't get me wrong. I'm using the blog for my benefit actually. I'm using the BLOG for it's actual purpose of it existing in the first place. *Smiles*
Anyway, just wanna wish everyone an early "Merry Christmas", "Happy Holidays" and "All the Best in SPM" to the form 5s just incase I can't come online for the few months to come. God TRULY loves you, so LOVE HIM back. He deserves it.
Love,
Eilene
